I’ve been dieting for the last two months (because I gained 15 pounds since the beginning of the year! I was so stressed.) and I really just want a cupcake D:

The semester is coming to an end very soon and next month, I’m going to Houston to go apartment looking. The closer to August it’s getting, the more anxious I’m becoming. I still can’t believe I’m moving! (Plus I’m sad because I’ve decided to leave my dog behind at home for a few months until I get settled…)

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Problems, problems and more problems.

So I remember talking about how I was moving to Houston a couple of posts back…

Well, my cousin backed out of the deal. She isn’t moving with me anymore because she wants to wait another year before she moves.

I’m not staying in this shitty place, waiting for her.

So, I ended up talking to my step-sister last week (she’s not really my step- sister…she’s my sister’s step-sister but I consider her my sister because we grew up together….yeah, it’s a long story.), and she was telling me how she was trying to get out of this hellhole too. So I told her my problem and she offered to move there with me.

So that problem was solved.

Now, two weeks ago, I stopped working at Starbucks (Some stuff went down and I just couldn’t deal with the drama anymore). So now I’m with out a job.

I need a job soon because I plan on moving around late August, early July (changed my mind about going in June…too soon).  Otherwise I won’t be moving anywhere.

I have two savings accounts. One of them is for the money I got when I was 18 from my parents for college . The other is the account that I’ve been putting half of my checks into for the past 7 months specifically for this move. I refuse to take money out of my “college” account to move, because that wasn’t what it was made for (And I’d be really pissed at myself if I end up needing that money later on) and I know the longer I don’t have a job the more money that is going to be coming out of that second savings account (I have to pay for gas and my car note and insurance, I help my parents with the bills since I live here and of course I shop…which I really need to stop doing.)

Shit is stressing me out.

Not only that but me and Thao (if anyone still reads who used to follow LADY DYNAMITE…you know who I’m talking about) are not talking anymore. Betrayals happened (on both sides) arguments were had and we just…aren’t talking anymore. This is depressing me more than anything else because she’s my best friend (or was) and I’m kinda lost without her in my life right now. At the same time, I know this is just apart of life and you lose friends and gain friends all of the time. Hopefully we’ll be on at least speaking terms soon.

Random, but my birthday is in 15 days.

I hope I have a really good 20th.

Anyway, enough about my troubles.

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Hold the flowers to your heart, and pray that they may some day bloom.

Everyone already knows about the earthquake and tsunami that hit Japan a few days ago. Really I could do a whole post about how saddened I am and how proud I am of some of the musicians I’m fans of (namely GACKT and Ayu, but really just about all my main artists I listen to have been great at helping. Makes me so proud to be their fan). I could talk about how annoyed and dissapointed I am at all of the insensitive people but I won’t.

If you haven’t donated yet or you plan to donate again click HERE where you can find a number of different organizations to donate to.

Obviously, being that this blog is mainly about Japanese music, I have nothing to really talk about.  So I’m just going to put a few songs that I’ve been listening to a lot of lately :)


MAY’S – Spread Your Wings


DREAMS COME TRUE – PROUD OF YOU (I’ve recently become a HUGE fan of DREAMS COME TRUE. Their music is amazing. If you’ve never tried them out before, you need to do it. You will not be dissapointed. (I personally recommend The Love Rocks…out of the five albums I’ve listened to so far this is my favorite.) also, This is a live performance of this song because I couldn’t find just a regular rip of the song.)


ORANGE CARAMEL – 마법소녀 (I’ve also become a huge fan of AFTERSCHOOL’s subgroup, Orange Caramel. Very – and I mean very – reminiscent of Morning Musume to me. I love it.)


WheeSung FT. Jun Hyung (BEAST) – Words That Freeze My Heart


and that’s it for now :) I might update again…if my mood is better by then…

The title of the post is a line from Ayumi Hamasaki’s ‘A Song is Born’.

I NEED A BOYFRIEND. (with a semi-emotional JYJ edit at the end…)

So…before I get into the music. Let me do something I haven’t really done since my last blog.

Talk about my life.

So, a few posts ago I said -very briefly- that I was moving to Houston at the end of this summer. I really think it’s something that I need to do, because I cannot live here anymore. I live in a relatively small city and there is really nothing for people here who want to make something of themselves (unless you want to work at a plant…). When I told my parents, they didn’t take it too well, especially since my brother moved away just a few months ago. Usually I would have caved and just decided to stay to make them happy. But I can’t do that anymore, otherwise I’ll never really get out on my own and live my life (because even when I was living in that apartment last year with Thao and Dani, my parents still ruled my fucking life).

Also, I’m not going to school next semester. When the Fall semester begins, I’ll just be moving to Houston, and I want to get used to life there and work so that I have some money to be able to support myself (because I know that once I start school I won’t be getting any hours). Before you guys ask, I’m not moving alone. It’s going to be me and one of my cousins. We both have the same problems and want to fix it lol.

Also, I am so pissed that I don’t have a boyfriend to get me anything for Valentine’s Day like really. I mean, I can count on my dad to get me something but that’s not the same as a boyfriend getting you something, you know what I mean? I haven’t had a boyfriend in in like, over seven months D: I miss having one~.  Le sigh, I guess I’ll just be a depressed bitch for Valentine’s Day lol.

Anyway, Onto the post.  (Ayu, 4minute, Arashi, and EXILE~)

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How long has it been since the first post? Like 2 weeks? …I need to start posting again…at least twice a week D:

Anyway, how has everyone been? I haven’t been on my computer much. I’ve just been using my phone this whole time. I need to stop though because I think my eyesight is getting worse from having to look at that little screen so hard (enlarging the page only helps so much.)

School is kicking my ass. I’m so glad that finals are approaching and then I’ll get basically a full month off from school.

Oh! On the old blog I mentioned about me switching majors. And after much thought and consideration….I’ve decided to major in Business. I mean sure, basically I need none of the classes I’ve taken (with the exception of the classes that everyone has to take) but that’s okay. I’m really excited about it actually. I talked to the advisor who takes care of the students under that major and she made it seem awesome so…yes. I am excited for next semester~.

Jpop and kpop ahead~

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